nicotine and caffeine
Thursday, October 28, 2004
mood:
i'm quitting smoking and coffee.
yep. i've come to realize that preparing for our wedding is also preparing for marriage. marriage means family. family means kids. kids mean getting pregnant. getting pregnant means the end of coffee and ciggies for me.
schmuck and i plan on having kids as soon as we're married. we both love kids and are anxious to have our own. sidekwento...we've even picked out names for our future kids. schmuck being a junior, if we have a boy, he'd like our son to be roland thomas III. i remember asking him what our son's nickname would be.
roland? but that's already how schmuck is called...
thomas? sounds too holy to be our child...
rolly? that's how schmuck's dad is called. sounds old...
tommy? hmmm, i knew a tommy in college. he was cute. this one has potential...
roll-roll? uuhhh...no
lando? makes him sound like a damn porn star...
well, apparently, schmuck has given this a lot of thought, and our son will be called trey. as in the third...three...tres...trey. not bad. i like it. if we have a girl though, then that's my territory. i don't have anything concrete yet, but her name would definitely have an alexandra in it. i so love that name. blame it on the damn novels i read when i was in highschool. right now, i'm playing with alexandra nicole or alexandra simone, and her friends will call her alex. niiice.
anyway, back to the talk on coffee and ciggies and getting pregnant and giving birth and having kids. i am dreading this. not the kids and the getting pregnant and the giving birth part. i meant the end of coffee and ciggies.
a lot of my friends who used to drink coffee regularly or who smoked have told me that it's really different once you're pregnant. you will stop. at all costs. you are now responsible for another human being's life, and that life being your kid's, you will naturally do everything in your power to give your kid the best. pregnancy also heightens your sense of smell, so you pretty much hate the smell of ciggy smoke.
sure, i know i can stop drinking coffee or smoking once i'm pregnant. i'll have no choice and i will do it. but the thing is, even before i get pregnant, i must already stop so that i will get pregnant. did i just make sense? which then means that as early as now, i should already be stopping.
my blog friend favel said that caffeine reduces a person's calcium. and even i know that calcium is very important when you're anticipating. so to increase my chances of a problem-free pregnancy, i know that i must put a halt on my caffeine. YIKES! right now, i am already starting to lessen my intake of coffee. from my usual 2 medium lattes minimum to 4 maximum, i am now limiting myself to one small latte a day. one measly latte!!! damn. so forgive my temper sometimes. i'm suffering, you know?
in terms of smoking, i've set a cap of 1 stick a day for me. so far, it's been working out quite well, and there are even days when i don't smoke at all. quite an accomplishment, really, coming from smoking 3 sticks a day at a minimum. and i'm quite proud of myself! i guess it helped when i went on my 2-week leave. by just being at home, i didn't get to smoke as much. although it can be very difficult especially after a hearty meal! what's worse is that i see schmuck smoking so he's a walking temptation (and not just in terms of smoking too...teehee!). another good thing i see out of quitting is that i will (hopefully) gain weight. at least that's what everyone else is saying, that when you stop smoking, you will gain pounds. i guess i'll find out if that's true.
i've vowed though, that by january 2005, i will totally put coffee and ciggies out of my life. for trey. or alex. but then again, for myself too.
wish me luck, friends!
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